Sunday, November 09, 2008

i am just like her

i did not tell you guys because i hate to see sympathy in your eyes

i heard this line while watching one of my favourites US dramas. i could totally feel connected to this character and it was clear why i like her to bits.

i guess i can describe myself as a time bomb. i dont really like sharing my inner thoughts and feelings with friends and family unless there is a need to or we are really very close. i dont see the need of making people to share my burden. but i think the ultimate reason is i hate to show my weak side to others. without sharing, everything is kept to myself, accumulating bit by bit within. who knows when will i explode and really leave this place?

nobody likes to be weak in comparison to others. i do not like to give up when things get tough. i hate to cry when i am faced with a problem because to me, crying means i am feeling helpless and it sucks. someone told me this before when i was pushed to my limits in secondary school, you cant cry in front of them. if you do, who is going to lead? simple, yet straight to the point.

i guess this is just my way of controlling extreme emotions.

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